It has been years since I last idolized someone from the
local television in the Philippines. It was more than 10years ago since I
became an actual fan. At my age, I have never imagined myself being the fan I
am right now. I did not see this coming.
It was just last year (2011) when I realized that I was once
again being a fan. And here is the catch; I am actually a fan of a 17 year old
singer/actress. But who cares about the age right?
It all started august of 2011 when I decided to stay at home
on a boring Sunday afternoon (Which is not normal because I usually go out on a
Sunday), so I figured I would stay at home and do nothing but to relax. I was
so bored and so I ended up switching the television on. I cannot seem to find the perfect movie to
watch, I kept changing channels then BOOOM! GMA PINOY TV! Haha! I did not know
we had this channel, all the while I thought we only have tfc. lol. (For some
of you who do not know, I am based in Singapore). To cut the story short, there
I was getting hooked to this variety show named Party Pilipinas. The singers in
this show were amazing, fantastic voices. But one of their singers captured my attention;
I did not know who she was, at least during that time. All I know is that they
call her a young diva. So I figured she was still of tender age. Haha! And I
was right, she was a teen with an incredible and equally amusing voice. After
the show I wanted to know more about that girl who just caught my attention.
Yes, that girl. So I searched the Internet, specifically Youtube, and then found
myself watching her videos. AWESOME! She is incredibly good. That voice! I was
speechless. So I spent my entire Sunday evening watching and listening to her
covers in Youtube.
And as what they always say, the rest was history. Here I am
back to going gaga over a TV personality. I am 20+++ years old, a preschool
teacher, and I am a fan of a 17year old singer/actress, yes you read it right,
17. People may have different opinions about this fan- phase I am in, but who
cares? If this fan girling thing would give you the happiest feeling in the
world, why stop and be ashamed of it?
For someone like me, who is miles away from home, I would
definitely hold on to something that would make me happy. This is all I've got
right now. My best friend once told me, 'why let go of something that gives you
the best feelings in the world?' She was right, sometimes we just have to think
of what makes us happy, not what makes other people happy.
And as of the moment, she makes me happy. Okay let me
rephrase that, her voice, her music and what she does makes me happy. Listening
to her sing gives me that extra push and inspiration, that voice just takes
away the sadness that I am feeling. Seeing her smile and perform on TV gives me
that encouragement to move forward and enjoy life.
Every time I feel like giving up, all I do is watch her
videos, because those videos reminds me of her story. I do not exactly know
everything about her life, but based from what I have read and heard, she did
not reach stardom in a blink of an eye, she had to take the long way to
success. Amidst all the struggles thrown at her, she remained standing tall and
proud as ever. Positivity is what she is made of. And that made her different
from the rest. And every time I feel lonely and alone, I listen to her songs,
because her music and her voice relieves that feeling of solitude. That voice
just makes me feel that home is just one step away.
I have never imagined myself getting this much inspiration
from a 'teen' but I just did. She may not know it, but I tell you, this
stranger has made a huge impact in my life. She just made me realize a lot of
things about life and happiness. No words could ever describe how great she is.
For others, she maybe just a singer, or an actress but for
me she is more than that. You see,
sometimes It is not merely idolizing someone; sometimes people must look deeper
into it. It’s beyond that. There will always be a deeper reason why people
appreciate artists and it varies from person to person.
As for me, I now know why I am this fan, it’s because this
'stranger' just made a huge impact in my life in so many ways. This person
helped me strengthen my faith and made me understand LIFE. Yes, as simple as
that. Imagine a 'teen' just changed my view about life. Astounding right? I may
not know her personally but my perception of her would never change. She just
brings all the positive energy in the world. I will always regard her with
utmost respect and admiration. And as what I always say, I am and will forever
be a fan.
-@iamjoang-
